Monday was a really bad day for me. I woke up not feeling well, which put me in a bad mood and from there, the day just continually got worse. I went to the bank to take out money, but I forgot my check didn’t clear until Tuesday. I got stuck behind people going ten under the speed limit and I was also overwhelmed to the brink with all things wedding planning that need to be done by next week.
Basically, every heavy stress wore over me the entire day and instead of looking for the good in the day or asking God to intervene, I let myself have a bad attitude about it all.
I was being selfish. I let my flesh take over and rule my head and heart that day.
Monday night I was in my apartment alone, scrolling through Twitter and came across this quote.
“The ability to speak truth to yourself makes you realize your whole life is NOT about you.” – Jess Connolly
Talk about a smack in the face. But hey, I needed that to wake myself up and reevaluate my heart and attitude.
It was then my soul was suddenly reminded of the love and grace of God. God never fails to rock my world with his love and grace, right when I need it most. Even though I am undeserving of His mercy, he still extends it to me, ever so openly.
I am thankful for a God who remains faithful and merciful, no matter how wretched and awful I am. I am thankful for God establishing in my heart a hope that I can never let go of, no matter how fickle and frustrated I am. I am thankful for God being gently patient with me, for I am so difficult at times. I am thankful for a God who wants to forgive me when I have done wrong. God is for me, not against me.
I do not deserve this love that is constantly pursing me and lavishing grace upon me, nor will I ever.
And yet, I still receive this love and grace – a thousand times over and over.
Be encouraged today,